So tonight hasn't been the best of nights for my husband and I. I'm grumpy, he's grumpy , we're all tired and overwhelmed. I desperately want to Scream at him to just stop talking but am taking the passive aggressive keeping my mouth shut with "that look" route . I am sharing this because some people think I am not capable of having a breakdown and that's far from the truth. This is a stressful time and I think this is fairly normal... I mean if it's not we all know I'm a little odd anyhow. I love my husband, he loves me but we are both overwhelming the crap out of each other... can I say crap? Well this is my blog and I'm going to. I called a friend upset my husband and I were arguing and She thought it was hilarious I was this upset over my husband and I not embracing while running through fields of flowers reassuring each other that everything's going to be ok.... " I love my sarcastic friends they are my fav" So to those of you having a rough night, if you're new to this it will be a stressful time for you. You and your spouse may argue about how you are going to afford the bill even if you're both in agreement you both don't know what to do. Yes we are both being childish arguing over things if said in a normal tone we would both agree with. It has to be the exhaustion. We are like two overly tired drunken toddlers with no rationalizing skills. This doesn't mean you don't love each other, tomorrows a new day, thank goodness. So If you find you and your spouse are annoying each other during this time you're not alone, I hate to break it to you but you're dare I say? Normal. Moving on to more news I have been having a hard time figuring out carbs in the recipes I currently use. My friend Katies mom Lisa was nice enough to buy us a beautiful kitchen scale that will be here Thursday. I feel that will make things allot easier on all of us. I am so happy I have these amazing people in my life wanting to jump in and help our family. Owens been keeping his blood levels in range ... there is so much more for me to learn about this disease but I'm still numb from all of this I can't help but to have moments where I am freaking out about the financial ramifications but for now the tears have stopped and we have gotten into a routine we are comfortable with. Tonight we checked the mail and this week I haven't seen a bigger smile on Owens face aside from when he got his pal Rufus. We are trying to look at the upsides, Owens middle child syndrome is all but a distant memory this week. With that being said What do you think? Owens new bracelet custom-paracord-diabetic-medical-alert pretty awesome right? I really love this boy he lights up my life <3 all my children do.
Added note the store owner of KnotRightParacord was sweet enough to send Owens bracelet as a gift! I can't wait to take pictures of it for you guys :) Opps Tme to run to do Owens 2am BG check! You may wonder why I am awake so often between 9 and 2am well lets just say I am a very sounds sleeper and when I am out, I'm out like a freaking light it just makes more sense to go to bed after his check ... for now.
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